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I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion that’s why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling throughIt’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said
Words I never said – Lupe Fiasco
The verse above is from the one song that caught my attention from Lupe’s music.
He’s quite right. Sometimes the biggest regrets I have aren’t about things I’ve said or done but rather not having said or done things when I really should have. When considering this, then I do have many regrets – some of them are quite recent.
As lame as it sounds, this song has inspired me to stop shutting up, to stop being diplomatic, to start speaking out, to start expressing myself and to be controversial if the situation warrants it. If this makes others feel uncomfortable then I’m sorry but I can’t keep quiet when I witness things that are not acceptable.
In my lifetime I’ve heard some racist comments, I’ve seen people get teased, bullied. I’ve seen people get abused, worse yet, I’ve let myself be abused (verbally) by others. Well at 26 years of age, I say “f**k that!”.
There are things I can’t tolerate and I will no longer keep the peace by being quiet. Our only weapons against wrongdoings are our thoughts and our voice. I choose to now speak up on issues I care about and defend those who need assistance. I can never be proud of myself for not acting when I should. I don’t mean we should all impose our views onto others but we should step in when things aren’t right.
Fear is what’s holding us back. So instead of keeping thoughts and opinions to myself and not acting when I should, I will now act in accordance with my own personal values and morals. Sorry if you don’t like it but I don’t want to live with these regrets any longer. As the song says I can’t take back something I never said in the first place.